Am not Greedy

SAI says : A greedy man can never attain dispassion or salvation

well this kept me thinking of a while.. why is my old man telling me something or the other and making me think.. i dont like this thinking business , c'mon i know i'm not greedy but what if i'm .. so where this sai.. i got to ask him something ,well you know to make sure i'm not greedy .

ME : deva your word on greedy man has kept me thinking and i have began to doubt myself

SAI : doubt yourself ?

ME : yes , you know i want to make sure i'm not greedy..

SAI : That you should know... how will i know.

ME : well i will know only when tell me who a greedy man according to u is.

SAI : obviously somebody who asks for more than what he has

ME : Then tell me dear sai you mean to say somebody who wants to improve in his life , somebody who wants to achieve more , imagines himself leading a more comfortable and luxuries life is he greedy?.

SAI : In a way yes , when he is not enjoying what he has already achieved and is always trying to push himself further more ,he is greedy . well this also a kind of addiction.

SAI : Its always good to set some goal, work hard towards reaching that goal and when you reach your desired level enjoy it, why do people always think of whats next and dont enjoy what they have , and thats when i say they are greedy. with greed comes jealousy and with jealousy comes hatred. you tend to compare yourself so much to that extent you might even start hating your own sibling.

ME : But deva when i work as hard as my friend and when i see her reaping the fruits of her hardwork while i recive nothing it makes me feel jealous and angry , what should i do then, why me alway ?

SAI : dont compare yourself with her, do justice to whatever you are doing and leave the rest to me.then you tend to become less greedy, mebbe beating your friend and winning the competition might make you feel happy, pleasant, proud of yourself , but dont you feel those feelings are just fugitive ? then comes the phenomenon of whats next , what if she beats you the next time... then comes greed...

instead when you be patient and dont be too keen on the result and dont compare yourself with others ,you slowly become dispassionate,that gives you more power and slowly you tend to attain salvation and the feeling is not momentary it forms your characteristic and gives you peace.

ME : true sai how silly i have been ,always requesting you to do this and that for me and that also used make me feel guily sometimes because i knew i was becoming greedy.Instead i could have always asked you to give me attachment in any duty that has been assigned to me but be dispassionate towards the result , i think if i have this attitude it makes me feel more secured aint it swami.

SAI : better late than never my darling.

ME ; i love you sai.