SAI SAYS : I only ask and take from him whom the god points out .
" If he wants something from us,he can always say he needs it ,why pull the god in this?".
Well ,This would be any normal person's opinion.
It was my opinion as well for a while.
But when one realizes the presence of sri sai in their life ,obviously their opinion changes.We tend to view this scenario with a new perspective.Don't worry we are not abnormal though.
According to me this is eternal.
Intially we knew him as an idol in a temple like any other hindu god, we might have or might not have bowed to him , but then arrives the "D day" when miraculously we get to know this old man much better than before and spontaneously we are attracted to him like the iron filing gets attracted to a magnet.
is this magic? are we becoming lunatic ? ,no
It's just that we have become a part of sai samraj and are realising his presence.
All these happened without our control , we have been deprived of the option ,wether or not we want to be a part of sai samraj ,this should have left us exasperated .
Instead we felt blissful,relaxed , happy , contented , i myself felt like i got a confidence boost jab.
so here it goes ,we are the chosen one and what did swami "take" from us , our ego,anxiety ,greed and a promise to follow the path of shradda and saburi.
So whats next ,now that we are in the team ,obviously our boss would "expect" something from us..it might range from a penny dakshina to writing his biography.who knows what task we are assingned to.
so to summarize the action of "asking and taking" ,is only to ease our effort towards the destined goal, it varies from person to person .
Sometimes it feels like we have been blindfolded on this wonderful journey and sometimes the vision is clear .But ,as long as we are with sadguru , who cares.
well now it leaves me thinking and makes me want ask deva...
" we do know there is some supreme power(god) which is guiding us and when we think you as that power ,why are you referring to god as somebody beyond yourself ?"
Sunday, 31 May 2009
Friday, 29 May 2009
Am not Greedy
SAI says : A greedy man can never attain dispassion or salvation
well this kept me thinking of a while.. why is my old man telling me something or the other and making me think.. i dont like this thinking business , c'mon i know i'm not greedy but what if i'm .. so where this sai.. i got to ask him something ,well you know to make sure i'm not greedy .
ME : deva your word on greedy man has kept me thinking and i have began to doubt myself
SAI : doubt yourself ?
ME : yes , you know i want to make sure i'm not greedy..
SAI : That you should know... how will i know.
ME : well i will know only when tell me who a greedy man according to u is.
SAI : obviously somebody who asks for more than what he has
ME : Then tell me dear sai you mean to say somebody who wants to improve in his life , somebody who wants to achieve more , imagines himself leading a more comfortable and luxuries life is he greedy?.
SAI : In a way yes , when he is not enjoying what he has already achieved and is always trying to push himself further more ,he is greedy . well this also a kind of addiction.
SAI : Its always good to set some goal, work hard towards reaching that goal and when you reach your desired level enjoy it, why do people always think of whats next and dont enjoy what they have , and thats when i say they are greedy. with greed comes jealousy and with jealousy comes hatred. you tend to compare yourself so much to that extent you might even start hating your own sibling.
ME : But deva when i work as hard as my friend and when i see her reaping the fruits of her hardwork while i recive nothing it makes me feel jealous and angry , what should i do then, why me alway ?
SAI : dont compare yourself with her, do justice to whatever you are doing and leave the rest to me.then you tend to become less greedy, mebbe beating your friend and winning the competition might make you feel happy, pleasant, proud of yourself , but dont you feel those feelings are just fugitive ? then comes the phenomenon of whats next , what if she beats you the next time... then comes greed...
instead when you be patient and dont be too keen on the result and dont compare yourself with others ,you slowly become dispassionate,that gives you more power and slowly you tend to attain salvation and the feeling is not momentary it forms your characteristic and gives you peace.
ME : true sai how silly i have been ,always requesting you to do this and that for me and that also used make me feel guily sometimes because i knew i was becoming greedy.Instead i could have always asked you to give me attachment in any duty that has been assigned to me but be dispassionate towards the result , i think if i have this attitude it makes me feel more secured aint it swami.
SAI : better late than never my darling.
ME ; i love you sai.
well this kept me thinking of a while.. why is my old man telling me something or the other and making me think.. i dont like this thinking business , c'mon i know i'm not greedy but what if i'm .. so where this sai.. i got to ask him something ,well you know to make sure i'm not greedy .
ME : deva your word on greedy man has kept me thinking and i have began to doubt myself
SAI : doubt yourself ?
ME : yes , you know i want to make sure i'm not greedy..
SAI : That you should know... how will i know.
ME : well i will know only when tell me who a greedy man according to u is.
SAI : obviously somebody who asks for more than what he has
ME : Then tell me dear sai you mean to say somebody who wants to improve in his life , somebody who wants to achieve more , imagines himself leading a more comfortable and luxuries life is he greedy?.
SAI : In a way yes , when he is not enjoying what he has already achieved and is always trying to push himself further more ,he is greedy . well this also a kind of addiction.
SAI : Its always good to set some goal, work hard towards reaching that goal and when you reach your desired level enjoy it, why do people always think of whats next and dont enjoy what they have , and thats when i say they are greedy. with greed comes jealousy and with jealousy comes hatred. you tend to compare yourself so much to that extent you might even start hating your own sibling.
ME : But deva when i work as hard as my friend and when i see her reaping the fruits of her hardwork while i recive nothing it makes me feel jealous and angry , what should i do then, why me alway ?
SAI : dont compare yourself with her, do justice to whatever you are doing and leave the rest to me.then you tend to become less greedy, mebbe beating your friend and winning the competition might make you feel happy, pleasant, proud of yourself , but dont you feel those feelings are just fugitive ? then comes the phenomenon of whats next , what if she beats you the next time... then comes greed...
instead when you be patient and dont be too keen on the result and dont compare yourself with others ,you slowly become dispassionate,that gives you more power and slowly you tend to attain salvation and the feeling is not momentary it forms your characteristic and gives you peace.
ME : true sai how silly i have been ,always requesting you to do this and that for me and that also used make me feel guily sometimes because i knew i was becoming greedy.Instead i could have always asked you to give me attachment in any duty that has been assigned to me but be dispassionate towards the result , i think if i have this attitude it makes me feel more secured aint it swami.
SAI : better late than never my darling.
ME ; i love you sai.
Trust him or not
God says : Iam the controller of all the actions of a man who trusts me and merges in me.
Now people do you belive him or not..well ,I feel we definetly do have the rights to question him. I have decided ask him and here goes our conversation
ME : who do you think you are? how can you pass such a statement without actually proving how genuine it is?
GOD : I know it is definetly genuine , it all depends on how much you believe in this truth.
ME: i definetly do trust you god.. it's just that i'm confused , the other day when i came crying to you about my problems you told me it was because of my karma.
GOD : Yes i did dear, so what did you do after that ?
ME : i thought i have to endure this because you said its because of my karma.so i kept facing it as a punishment and even you dint help me out.
GOD : Did i ever say i wont help you out
ME : But i thought it was understood because you told "good or bad i have to face the results of karma"..
GOD : Yes I did dear, but I never told you I won't help you and this is where the question of trust comes and the depth of your belief in me comes.
GOD : If you had really believed me , you wouldn't have left me when i told you it was because of your karma but held me more tightly ,merged in me and thats when i start controlling your action.
Trust might sound very simple dear but it's very difficult to practice indeed.
GOD: As an infant, whenever you cried your mother nursed you provided you with all you need.. did you ever doubt her at that time? did you ever think of your karma then .. no, you trusted her so much and merged in her while she found a way out of all your problems and worries. It's that trust i'm asking for my dear. That is the only way i can control all your actions my beloved and remember you are always an infant to me and all i need is ,you to think me as your mother.
ME : In that case are you suggesting not to believe in karma..
GOD: i'm suggesting you to believe in me dear :).
Now people do you belive him or not..well ,I feel we definetly do have the rights to question him. I have decided ask him and here goes our conversation
ME : who do you think you are? how can you pass such a statement without actually proving how genuine it is?
GOD : I know it is definetly genuine , it all depends on how much you believe in this truth.
ME: i definetly do trust you god.. it's just that i'm confused , the other day when i came crying to you about my problems you told me it was because of my karma.
GOD : Yes i did dear, so what did you do after that ?
ME : i thought i have to endure this because you said its because of my karma.so i kept facing it as a punishment and even you dint help me out.
GOD : Did i ever say i wont help you out
ME : But i thought it was understood because you told "good or bad i have to face the results of karma"..
GOD : Yes I did dear, but I never told you I won't help you and this is where the question of trust comes and the depth of your belief in me comes.
GOD : If you had really believed me , you wouldn't have left me when i told you it was because of your karma but held me more tightly ,merged in me and thats when i start controlling your action.
Trust might sound very simple dear but it's very difficult to practice indeed.
GOD: As an infant, whenever you cried your mother nursed you provided you with all you need.. did you ever doubt her at that time? did you ever think of your karma then .. no, you trusted her so much and merged in her while she found a way out of all your problems and worries. It's that trust i'm asking for my dear. That is the only way i can control all your actions my beloved and remember you are always an infant to me and all i need is ,you to think me as your mother.
ME : In that case are you suggesting not to believe in karma..
GOD: i'm suggesting you to believe in me dear :).
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